sorry about dropping in and out from month and year long hiatuses
life gets busy after 30 lol
reflecting back, years ago when I first took a hiatus it was related to the constant influx of notes from people meaning well, letting me know someone was stealing my art.
i understood they were trying to do me a favor. usually the supposed theft was vague, neglible, easily chalked up to coincidence. but oftentimes it was not only quite blatant, but they were attempting to make money off it on top of it. this problem reached new heights when I started doing fanart for popular tv shows and movies. I hate to admit, but after some time it just wore me down mentally. i didnt want to deal with people anymore. i felt like <dramatic feels from younger days> i was being punished for sharing my ideas with the world in the form of art </dramatic feels from younger days>. didn't help when 2 former deviantart artists (whom i will never name, mostly because I forgot their old DA titles) who were hugely popular and then notoriously disappeared, contact me on two separate occasions to pretty much say "yea people suck and that's why I left." from then on I continued arting, but kept most of it to myself. eventually i too, "disappeared". it was a ridiculous time.
so it was on and off like that. love/hate relationship with DA, "teehee."
almost right after my last post, about the art trades. ..I lost WiFi to my desktop. at the time I only had a smart phone as backup. and well, the DA app is such a joke it gave me a headache and I never logged in again.
sometime after that I got a tablet. but it's still an android, which meant no photoshop. so i played around with drawing apps, but became frustrated and ditched them. I'm just so hardwired to photoshop. .. (boohoo I know)
I doodled here and there but nothing serious. however while I may not have been drawing much, I have been mentally developing an OC. it's something I see myself as in my dreams alot, but for the life of me couldn`t get down on paper.
since my wifi-less computer was just taking up space collecting dust, i made the somewhat difficult decision to trade my desktop for laptop. difficult because it meant a real goodbye to precious photoshop lol. (this was literally the computer I had done ALL my digital art in).
so anyway as time went on I began to really miss drawing. so I decided to take a round two with my tablet and an app called Sketchbook Autodesk. I knew i had to break outside my comfort zone (waahh).
well it's been going good. ...so refreshing. even if all I've been drawing is the creature from my literal dreams.
anyway, I actually debated closing this account and starting a new anonymous one. buuut I decided against that in the end. uh, sentiment...I guess.
I cannot accept trades or commissions. for whatever reason, I just don't have the capability to complete everything I take in, and just wind up feeling shitty when I can't hold up my end of the bargain.
on a final note, my personal life is a married one and consists of taking care of 20 kids. the kids consist of an assortment of snakes, lizards, and inverts. and 3 ferrets. (the other OTHER reason I've been too busy for art).
so tldr: I am back (forrealthistimeiswear). without photoshop. with a different mindset. a new OC. and please don't ask me for art. oh and REPTILES.
(and thanks for all the bday wishes!)